It's been hectic and tiredness weeks for me. yess. It's so hard yet I need to go through all of this just to pass these days. I missed the old me. the brave one. the very high self-confident, very kind to everyone, and not a shy person.
nowdays, I've change a lot. I mean it. a very alott ~ Im a shy person. not confident, easily lost hope, almost everytime gave up easily, and lazy to think that I need to be strong. Im not sure why. probably Im already tired with this world. whenever I want to gave up, I hold my anger, then the an anxiety comes consume my soul. I am an anxiety fighter too but Im just sad. my soul is sad. very2 upset.
for now, I just need to travel for theraphy. but I can't do theraphy long enough since I got a lot of shits to be done here. its oke. I used to be monster, strict, discipline, very high confident, and a very good adviser to everyone. and also, monster have feelings too ;')
