Reason cant Deny

why I choose him?

I choose him not only bcoz He choose me as well but bcoz He choose to see the painful parts of loving me.

I choose him not only to fill up the missing parts of me but bcoz He choose to hold my hand and make things right even if I am almost hopeless about living.

I choose him bcoz He saw the best parts of being me in my own world. He made me feel like a brand new person which I never felt from anyone else before.

I chose him bcoz I believed in his potential to stay with me even if the world will disagree.

I choose him bcoz I saw his tears fill up his eyes and that felt phenomenal and real. It was one of those truths about him that he's afraid to lose me.

I chose him bcoz I know his weaknesses and it complements my weaknesses too. 
I choose him bcoz everything i fell into its right places even if was never meant to be perfect but the best partner I could pray for.

I would still chose him if I have to live again in a different life.

Stars and Moon on my hand

I used to wonder about people coming back after they've decided to leave. I used to wait for the day they come back and realize that they messed up or realize that life is miserable without me. But then, I realized that better than all this mess is someone who never leaves.

Someone who never leaves when you hit bumps in the road, someone who never leaves when the rain starts falling down on you, someone who never leaves no matter how many other people are trying to get their attention, someone who chooses to stay every single day.

You deserve someone who never leaves when you tell them about the things you did that you're ashamed of and the things that happened to you that you promised not to tell anyone. when you tell them about things you really don't like about yourself and the things you hated about your past. You deserve someone who never leaves no matter how dark it gets.

You deserve someone who never leaves when you tell them how much you love them, how much you really want to make them happy and how make you feel something no else made you feel before. How they are special to you and how you really just want to spend your days looking at them and spend your nights sleeping in teddy's arm.

You deserve someone who stays no matter how passionately you display your love and how fearlessly you show your emotions. You deserve someone who never leaves even if they found a better job or made more money or bought fancy car. Someone who never leaves when they're at their best, when they can get anyone they want but still choose you, when they don't even care about exploring all these other options to realize your worth bcoz they know what they have and they know that you are one of kind. You deserve someone who makes you believe that some people can stay.

you deserve someone who never leaves when things are not that exciting, when life becomes overwhelming for you to handle, when you are tired all the time, when you're lost and confused and don't know what to do next, when you keep doubting yourself and your capabilities. you deserve someone who reminds you of how you survived, someone who reminds you of your strength, someone who reminds you of your greatness, and someone who reminds you that even though you can make it on your own, they want to be there, they don't want you to be alone this time and they want to fight your battles with you. 

Even though  all have that one person we wish could come back, what we really should wish for is someone who never leaves. Someone who left before could leave again but someone how could've left but decided to stay is exactly the kind of person you deserve to be with.

broken-heart girl

have a lots of patience.
for she is lost in track and in need of your guidance. she acts strong but sh isn't.she is so fragile.
People in the past damaged her, hurt and left her and it made her hard and cold. if she needs time for her self, let her.
Do not think that she doesn't love you anymore. she needs time for her self. too.

Give love like there is no tomorrow, like every minute is the last minute.

Efforts -- very important.
Effort makes her feel that she is special and worthy of your time.

Forgiveness -- for she will surely make you cry. Make you scream, make you want to give up because of her attitude and mistakes, which she doesn't mean at all. Still forgive her. She doesn't know what she is doing.

Lastly, stay. Stay no matter how hard the situation is. No matter how messy things get. You will overcome it. Just stay. Don't be like those people who left her before. Stay, she needs you. She just acts like she doesn't

p/s ; forgive me, i know. i little stubborn sometimes, i hurted you, im sorry. i still want you in my life. please don't leave me no matter what..

for him, who are very closes to me.

Its different between..

Talk 'to' her and not 'at ' her .. there's a difference. its not always about what you say but how you say it and the tone you use that often turn a simple discussion into an argument.

when you talk 'to' her, you are considerate of her feelings and her opinions.

when you talk 'at' her her, you are disregarding both, and she can feel it ..

The Nature of Love

If i could tell my younger self one thing, it would be this ;

There are many things in life you can postpone,but love isn't one of them.


A bruise is tender
but does not last,
it leaves me as
I always was.

But a wound I take
much more to heart,
for a scar will always
leave its mark.

And if you should ask
which one you are,
my answer is -
you are a scar.

Three Questions?

What was it like to love him? asked Gratitude.
It was like being exhumed. I answered. And brought brought life in a flash of brilliance.

What was it like to be in loved return? asked Joy.
It was like being seen after a perpetual darkness, I replied. To be heard after a lifetime of silence.

What was it like to lose him? asked Sorrow.
There was a long pause before I responded.

It was like hearing every goodbye ever said to me -- said all at once.