It so hard for me and its been harder now. My depression and an anxiety getting worse but thanks to the guy that I loved. Always there with me. And my friend. Now, I never recall when was the last time I have a best happy moment. I can't do anything much for now yet I only proceed my study as usual, complete the assignment and do revision a bit. But the vibes and the emotion will always remain the same which is Stress and sadness that I've been holding on in my chest. Im verry upset and sadnesss always in me. I want to be happy too. But the happy that I gain will never be the same. It feels like something missing. Probably bcoz I missed my mom so much.
I thought being a bz person is good. Bcoz focusing do works and gain experience everyday coz Im already grown up. But the biggest mistake I do in my life is, I never thought about home/family. Then I realize after that. Being a bz person is not good and its not important of being bz if you don't remember about home. Being a bz person is such a pain ass coz it makes you forget about home. Now I truly understand what it means by "if it's important to you, you always make time and bz is never exist. Bz exist when you think about being bz only.
