Kek Sarang Semut ( Let's go recipe with Cardoza )

Hello world, its been a while since I updated and touch my blogger. So today for the firstime, I would like to share with you about the recipe of Kek Sarang Semut. It is one of my fav since childhood. My mom used to baked this a lott since I was little. reallyy long time ago ~

For current situation, I tried to replicate or try to follow from my mom recipe? I need to baked for myself coz nowdays is really hard to find people sell this cake, especially near my place abc-xyz. ahahahaa. So, lets get started !

Ingredients ; 

1. 4 eggs ( room temperature )
   
2. 1 can of Sweetened creamer
3. 1/2 spoon of Baking Soda
4. 2 spoon of margerine
5. 1 cup of burn sugar
6. 2 cups of flour (stiff)
   

 

Before start mixture of the ingredients, lets do burn sugar first. this is the main element for this recipe. the trick is :

 In a hot pot/pan/wok, heat it up and put 1 cup of regular white sugar.

let it heat up until it slowly turn to brown sugar and turn to black (smells like burn sugar). 

Once it turn to burn sugar, off the heat and put 1 cup of water. and set aside to cool.

*the measurement is 1 cup sugar = 1 cup water

So, lets start do the mixture !

1. Prepare a bowl, add wet ingredients, an eggs, sweetened creamer, margerine. Mix it well by hand or mixer. (if you see margerine lumps, let it be. its good to go next step) then add the burn sugar. mix well.
2. Next, add dry ingredients, flour and baking soda. Mix it well. (if you see lumps, let it be)
3. put some margerine on your baking pan or baking paper, and pour the mixture into the baking pan then preheat the oven for 5mins 180'c. after that put inside and let it baked 45mins or until it smells good and burn a bit on top of the layer.

Let it cool down - DO NOT cut it off when it still hot - warning! Once it cool down, cut the cake and enjoy. can keep on fit air container and last until 3days

Just my thoughts or not?

 Its been worse day for these past few days due to my negative thoughts keep hunting me. Until I decided to contact back or to touch back to people who was here and there for me. 

I just done on called with both of my lively gegirls. Thank God they doing just fine since that day until now. Im glad they doing well in their daily day. So, I plan to hangout for them. Im not sure if its on and go smoothly. And also, probably it could be my last with them. Well, who knows ~~~~

My negative thoughts like... sometimes I want to end my life  or sometimes I feel like. I want to hurt myself. Feels like theres nothing important anymore in this life. The world is sick. People surrounding toxic and environment getting bad. It is a bad year for me and for all of us. But mine, Im not sure if I can handle this emotion. My mental sometimes is ok? And sometimes I feel its not oke at all. I feel fatigue. And always think wanna close my eyes forever. But still breathing. Im not sure for what Im living for. I rather go hell feel the pain. Than staying alive in this sick planet earth with painfull days. 

I've been bad with people nowdays and theres a time I feel funny for myself. Because, Im not talkin or seeing that person anymore. But I am gladly and happily seen his/her status showing that their are justtt doing finee. I like to know about people quietly. And pray for them. That they will always be fine. Seeing other people doing fine is already make me happy yet sitting here alone, is verry not ok at all. 

But its oke. I just wanna spendtime with whoever I want bfore I can't control this negative thoughts consume my mind and soul. Its ok. I wish for you the best in your life.