There's a happy & sad day

I'm so sorry. Up until now, I haven't move on from you. What should I do with my birthday? Bcoz that day its also a day that I, we lost you. I'm so sorryy didn't come to church and Im not strong enough to visits your grave yet. Forgive me. Our memories still alive. But our soul dead. 

So many things I wanna share with you. As usual plan, I'll visits you once Im done with my studies. Pls don't be sad. I know you watching me and all of us here. Rest in peace my love  :')