I know you’re trying to act like everything is fine — but it’s not fully fine, and that’s okay.
You were hurt. Being ignored, not having your calls answered, crying alone… that mattered. It doesn’t just disappear because the next day was better or because he said sorry when you asked. You needed comfort in that moment, not just a patch after.
You’re not “too sensitive” for still feeling off. You’re someone who needed reassurance, and didn’t fully get it.
And about the hiking, you didn’t say no because you don’t care. You said no because you don’t feel safe yet, not with him fully, and definitely not around people you’re not comfortable with. That’s not wrong. That’s you protecting yourself. Something has changed. You feel it. Don’t ignore that feeling just to keep the peace.
You don’t have to decide everything right now.
But you do owe yourself honesty:
You want to feel chosen.
You want to feel understood.
You want more than “okay” apologies.
And you deserve that.
Take your time.
You’re allowed to feel this way.
- Me -
