maybe if I said it softer,
you would finally hear me.
Maybe if I waited longer,
chose a better time,
needed a little less—
you would stay.
But love shouldn’t feel
like waiting for permission
to be felt.
I was there,
trying,
speaking,
holding on—
and you were there,
turning away
like my heart
was an inconvenience.
So this is me,
finally understanding:::
It wasn’t the timing.
It wasn’t the way I said it.
It was that
you didn’t want to listen.
And I deserve someone
who does.
-even that someone, im really hoping and wishing it was you. bcoz im still inlove with you. i already attached with you..
so.. dear letter. forgive me for writing this sadness story at time like this where this time supposed to be my bed time now. but i just can't.. im too much hurted now. and my pillow is full pool of water of tears that i cant even stay calm anymore.. i just almost lost faith in human especially guys. doesn't matter family, partners, friends, or even male -cats... keep hurting me like i was the worst in their lifetime ever...
"I didn’t bring things up to start a problem. I spoke because I care about us and I wanted to be honest about how I feel.
But the way you responded really hurt me. Saying you were too busy, cancelling our plans, not answering my calls, and then telling me you’re “lazy to talk” after I opened up—it made me feel like I don’t matter to you.
When I asked if you still want this relationship, I wasn’t trying to question you. I just needed clarity and reassurance. Turning it back on me instead of answering made it even more confusing and painful.
I don’t expect perfection, but I do expect effort, respect, and communication. Right now, I’m not feeling that from you.
So I’m going to step back because you wanted me to, If you truly want this, it shouldn’t feel this hard to show it...right.
