recently, since i had a nightmares. each day by day i continue go through a day act fine even tho deep inside i am really terrified what will be happen to me (unexpected ways. maybe)
i did told him abt the dreams what its abt. he still convinced and confident said. he will not leaving me. will not. ever.
i smile :)
then starting to questions myself... why i need a lit of reassurance again and again from him? even we were just perfectly fine. its not about i doubt about him or us. is just me.... what if... im being a red flag women in his life? will he stays and still loves me the same way? or will he let me stays in his life? or does it make him change? what if. what if what if....
yes... its hunting me like crazy.
i just wish theres a switch off from my brain to stop overthinking and just keep loving him.
and again... shud i stay silent to keep the peace that we have now? orrr shud we open conversation abt it?
