i just wanted you to care about the things that hurt me. but you made me feel like i was too much.
i wanted to feel heard without having to explain myself over and over.
i wanted you to notice the pain instead of dismissing it.
i wanted comfort, not defensiveness.
every time i spoke up, it felt like i was asking for something unreasonable, like my feelings were a burden. so i started holding back. i choose silence instead of honesty because it hurt less than being ignored.
i swallowed my words and told myself to be patient, to be understanding, to be smaller..
but.
but love shouldn't make me feel like i have to stay quiet just to keep the peace.
i never wanted to argue, i was only asking for care, for efforts, for reassurance that what i felt mattered to you.
because when person you loves keeps making you feel like you're too much, you start believing that maybe you are the problem. and thats the part that hurts me the most..
ok blogs... how about you called her toxic now??
ermmmm. but you met her when she was kind, open and trusting. before the lies, before the betrayal, before she had to protect herself from you.
she became guarded because you keep hurting her. she became reactive because you kept crossing lines.
she became tired because she kept choosing you while youuu choosing yourself.
that wasn't toxicity, that was damage.
and expecting her to stay soft after everything you put her through is the realll denial. you didnt lose a good women. you changed her, then blamed her for the results.
